its too dreadful in here

better leave

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I’m sick of crawling up

I’m sick of cheering myself up

I’m sick of trying to be tough

I have no more energy and confidence in making myself  happy

I refuse to be happy

Go on and tease my thoughts

Go on and be disappointed in me

Go on and ignore me

I’m just too weak to afford happiness in life

Instead of pushing myself so hard to be happy or move on

I rather stay sad

Go on and say I’m foolish

Go on and show no sympathy on me

Go on and give up on me

I give up my future happiness

and I’ll get used to sadness